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Then I kissed him..

It was just soft and gentle. And he suddenly pulled me in and kissed me back. I closed my eyes and before I knew it, it was done. He suddenly let go and pushed me gently.

"I-I-I'm sorry." He said.

Nabigla ako at medyo nainsulto. He doesn't need to push me back as if I was invading his over-all existence.

"You didn't need to push me back like that." I softly answered.

"Pasensya na. Akala ko kasi-"

"It's okay. I'm sorry." Umupo ulit ako sa balcony and just kept quiet. Hindi ko alam kung ano pa yung dapat kong sabihin. He was still standing behind me.

"Hindi kita maintindihan-"

"Wala kang dapat intindihin. Sabi ko nga, walang malice. Try lang." I scoffed and I guess he felt insulted.

"Ganyan ka ba talaga?"

"Alin?"

"You don't know how to take things seriously. Do you just really go and kiss your friends like that?" He was mad.

"Yes and no." Tiningnan ko siya. "Yes, hindi ako marunong magseryoso dahil alam kong life is too short to take things seriously. And no, I dont go around kissing my friends like that." Tumahimik ako and at napaisip kung dapat ko nga talagang sabihin ang susunod kong sasabihin. "Ikaw lang."

Manuel looked through my eyes. The kind of look na parang nabigla, na hindi niya maintindihan, na magulo ang isip niya. "It's your thing.. and.. I don't want to be in it." He said and went away.

Nang sinabi niya yun, I felt my body shiver. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba tong ginagawa ko. I'm breaking a very good friendship and yet I want to try how it would feel being with him in a different kind of relationship.

Napaupo ulit ako sa balcony and just looked at the view. Bigla nalang tumulo yung mga luha ko. "First time to ah." First time itong nangyari sakin. Ako yung medyo naghabol, ako yung honest, ako yung tinanggihan. "It's kinda insulting.. and hurtful." I wiped my tears and started dialing on my phone.

Ringggg. Ringggg. Rinnggg. "Manong, pwede po-" Suddenly, someone held my hand at kinuha niya ang phone ko. "Manuel-" Then he hugged me.

"I'm sorry.."

"No, I'm sorry.."

"Just stay.. uwi narin naman tayo bukas eh. Let's just act like nothing happened here, okay?" He smiled and wiped my tears.

"Y-yeah." Then we just laughed. And we spend the whole night talking and laughing and cracking jokes. Hindi ko alam pero I'm very happy when I'm with Manuel. Hindi yung happy na nararamdaman mo when you are with friends but.. it's that special kind of happiness.

The next morning, we were all ready to go home. "I really had fun, thanks a lot." Sabi ko sa girls and smiled here and there to them.

"Next time ulit, Lee." Sabi naman ng isang lalaki dun.

"Sure, sure. As long as I am always welcome, why not diba? This place is awesome naman kasi."

"Oo naman, kaw pa!"

Then everyone was asking kung san sasakay si Janice since full na sila sa isang car na dala nila.

"Pare, dun na sya sa inyo. Dalawa lang naman kayo ni Lee e." Sabi ni Jig.

Napatingin naman sakin si Manuel and I also looked the other way. Ayoko namang magpaobvious na ayokong isama samin si Janice no.

"Sure. Dito ka na samin, Jans."

"Thanks a lot, Manuel.." In her squeaky irritating, annoying, freakish, not so normal voice!

"Tara na, Lee." Manuel called out to me.

Then I had another dilemma, san naman kami uupo? I mean, san sya uupo? Sa likuran ba o sa harapan? San ako uupo? Arghhh. Awkward naman nito. But then Janice opened the door beside the driver's seat so I knew then na sa likod ako uupo.

Pupunta-punta dito ng walang dalang sasakyan tapos sasabay pa samin tapos sa harap pa uupo.. then ano ako? Yaya? Wanted a chaperone? Ganun?

Pero tumahimik lang ako. Manuel looked at me pa sa likod and siguro he also felt the awkwardness and the truth behind my smiles and 'Im-okay-here' words.

Sorry. Manuel mouthed to me. I smiled fakely and sarcastically to him. All throughout the travel, they were talking and talking and talking and I didn't. Naloloka ako kay Janice eh. She's a smart-ass. Hindi naman inferior ako sa kanya kasi ganito ganun, maybe I just don't want to even try to put up with her. Kasi she thinks she's better than me.. and hindi naman ako insecure to try to insist that she's not. Suit herself.

Buti nalang kasama ko iVid ko, at least kahit papano, nagiging maganda yung tunog ng mundo ko. Di tulad nang kay Manuel, tunog daga.

3 hours of travel, mabilis lang actually. Kasi natulog lang ako. Mukha akong ewan dun sa backseat. Then ginising na nila ako when we reached the metro. 

"Janice, ikaw na yung mauuna ha.." Manuel said.

"Sure, sure."

Sure sure. Yan lang ba alam mo? xD

"Huli ako?" Sabi ko namang bigla. As if ayaw ko, diba?

"Oo. Huli ka." Manuel winked at me so okay.

Then ayun na nga, hinatid namin si Janice and I transferred na sa harapan.

"Okay din naman sa likod no? Masarap ang tulog." Sabi ko.

"Sorry na, Lee. Panget naman yun kung papatransfer ko pa sya diba?"

"Ewan ko sa iyo." I pouted.

Then nung medyo nakalayo na kami sa bahay nina Janice in a very prestigious village, he suddenly stopped the car. Nabigla naman ako. When I looked at him. Nakatingin lang siya sa malayo and he looked so serious at malalim ang iniisip.

"Uy.." I poked him. "Manuel to earth?"

He took a deep breath and looked at me. "You know, I've been thinking.."

"What?"

"I told you it's not my thing, right?" About last night. Damn. "What if.. what if I agree to it?"

Napatahimik ako at napatingin lang din sa kanya. "No. No. No-no-no-no."

"Why not?"

Shit. "I'll hurt you.." My tears started to well up. "I don't ever wanna do that to you. And-"

"Just-...." He paused. "..try."

"Noooo. I can't. You know how I am. I'm selfish and not serious.. and- No!"

"Lee-" I bit my lip. "Just.. try."

"I can never give you something to hold on to. I can not give you any commitment or anything as such." I cried. "All I can give you.. is now. Something like a ... fling."

Natahimik si Manuel and looked at me.

"Give me your terms." Sabi niya in a very low and serious tone of voice which made me shiver.

"Manuel-"

"Just give me your terms.."

I was crying so hard. "You. Me. No us."

"Fling indeed." He said in a firm voice.

"What?"

"If you want something like that, then so be it." He smiled faintly. "I guess it's better than nothing, huh?"

I bit my lip and closed my eyes. "It's like.. you can still see girls.. and the same on me. But.. we're together. It's just that there's no expectations and-"

"Yeah, I get it."

"Yeah."

I took a breath and wiped my tears. He revved up the engine and when we arrived home, I bid goodbye.

"Lee-"

"Hm?" I looked back.

"I like you a lot. And, I'm willing to really try it." I smiled at Manuel and I leaned inside the car next to him.

"I like you too." Then I gave him a peck on the lips.

He smiled and I smiled back.


I guess.. this is better than nothing.

okay!! wow

updated sa wakas

grabe si manuel and lee
hirap ng situation dahil sa life

hay naku

friendship works out still

naku paano na next time

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OMG. Eto na yun o. ^^
Di yan kakayanin ni Lee. Lam ko magkakatotohanan din yan.

I actually love updating my stories as long as I can see a lot of readers. Hahaa!

my ghed...it's so nice..

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I actually love updating my stories as long as I can see a lot of readers. Hahaa!

kya pala. haha ;D